I know what I am supposed to do.
I know what I am supposed to eat.
I even eat correctly a % of the time.
AND THEN I DON'T.
This manic, "I am queen of the world, Cadbury cream eggs are no match for my boundless energy and svelte physique" kicks in like the delusional sabotaging propaganda it is. I stay up late working on projects OR DANCING ON TABLES at reputable fundraisers. I skip protein and veggies in leu of sugary delights. I start ordering decadent caramel lattes instead of my staple green tea. I am off the wagon. And I tell myself it's ok. There will be no repercussions this time.
1. And then I get sick. That soar throat kicks in, fatigue, and aches pop up. I'm tired and feel yucky. I want to skip the very things that usually make me feel good like exercise and early wakeups. I'm easily overwhelmed.
2. My mood & drive plummets. An overall low energy, and disinterest in most things prevails and I wonder how my brain can make such a convincing case that life is not worth living. I feel like screaming, "You're amino acid and vital micronutrient deficient brain, not dying- let's be a little less dramatic!!"
3. The fatigue takes hold and I'm forced to rest despite the oppressive boredom. I experience depression symptoms and lose my zest. I'm drawn to quick highs like sugar and caffeine to even feel normal. I know I need sleep but stay in a warped denial. I beat myself up for taking my health for granted and ending up on my ars once again...
4. I get angry. I mean cranky, irritable, yucky to be around spicy. I envision doing terrible things to people that cut me off on the freeway. I am no where near connected to my best, open, loving self and wouldn't know the first place to look to find her. I am upset with the world because I am really upset with myself. There is no love to give out if I am not cultivating any love within.
AND THEN I GET REAL with myself and I make friends again with my Vitamix.
I start making spinach, protein powder, broccoli, smoothies. I bathe my cells in Spirulina, chlorella, and the good parts of green veggies. I start taking my supplements again and focusing on my hydration. I say no things to get enough sleep. I remind myself that I am good enough even if I don't get it all done and that my beauty, energy, cancer prevention, cognitive sharpness, and mood all depend on the occasional nap and good food choices.
And then I start feeling REALLY GOOD AGAIN. I wonder how I ever neglected my nutrition, scheduled exercise, and commitment to sleep. I have to remind myself to not overcommit and start the whole process all over again. ... Which is likely to happen :)
YOU DESERVE TO FEEL GOOD
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